||[Apr. 24th, 2002|09:19 pm]
A shadow of what she once was
|||||jewel- foolish games||]|
I haven't updated for a while.
I'm sorry about that.
I guess I haven't had much reason to.
Yesterday was fun.
Pina Colada lubricant anyone?
Heather called me a whore. Tsk tsk.
Today was also quite fun.
I got disgruntled with Theresa Cao.
It's been 4 freaking years. She should move on with her life.
The LOTR 2 preview looks absolutely amazing.
I thought the first one was good, this one put it to shame.
This is me updating.
I don't know.
I usually forget to update when I'm in a good mood.
Now I'm just here.
I'm trying not to cry for no particular reason.
I feel like an idiot.
Everyone elses problems are so much more important right now.
I'm not saying mine aren't here, or that other people are selfish.
That's not what I mean.
I just feel stupid.
I have no nails left again.
It hurts when I touch my fingers now.
I'm now officially chewing the skin.
I know it's an awful habit. I tried the bad-tasting nail polish.
After awhile I just grew accustomed to it.
My mom bought me ice cream. The kind with nerds.
I had a bit with a fork. I hate ice cream with a spoon.
It tasted good, but I don't want any right now.
I hate how when you're upset you want to eat.
Food bothers me.
I wonder if I could live off of broccoli for supper.
I like broccoli. It looks like that's spelt wrong.
I feel so cold. I haven't been able to warm up all day.
The movie theatre was insanely cold. So was Agnes' lotion.
Poor Agnes, has to have surgery tomorrow.
Don't worry, I'll make you a care-package.
I need to stop babbling.
I hate these funks. Where nothing makes sense.
Where everything hurts.
I don't understand what brought this on.
I was in a good mood an hour ago.
Smugen. I'll be fine.
Dissapointment is an awful thing.
Getting your hopes up. Why even bother?
I'm not saying to take a forever pessimistic attitude.
However, like the saying goes....
Expect the worst. Or something like that.
Now I shall listen to Jewel songs.
"break me" "take me" "ee ee"